Hi Guys
Just feeling really crappy tonight. My old best friend sent me back my spare house keys this week together with a present for my little one with a note addressed to him. Nothing addressed to me. It's like I don't exist anymore and I'm not even disfellowshipped. She wants something back she leant me but wants me to leave it outside her house. Another old friend just got back from touring the world and texted me she wouldn't be coming to see me again but 'loved me'.
I know all the reasons why this is happening but it still feels like being stabbed in the heart.
Why don't they realise that by what they are doing there is no way I would ever want to go back and be a part of their stupid club?!
I feel like telling them all they can 'f' off and go to hell and I SO don't want to feel that way because I know they'll think in their smug way "see, nothing good comes of leaving 'mother'". It is just so cruel and unchristian.
I keep thinking this is a bad dream and I'm going to wake up soon.
I know many of you out there have had so much worse to deal with but this is really tough for me just now. Thanks for listening through the tears....
sweet pea
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Struggling....
by sweet pea inhi guys .
just feeling really crappy tonight.
my old best friend sent me back my spare house keys this week together with a present for my little one with a note addressed to him.
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Happy Birthday Zico!
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Why I Loved the 2007 Convention "Follow the Christ"!
by V ini attended friday's part of the 2007 district convention "follow the christ" with my believing wife.
we survived the limited parking and crowded seating (although large sections of the auditorium had been shut off).
we suffered the monotonous program delivered by robotic speakers reading rehashed outlines.. so why did i love this convention?.
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Wonderful news, it's the beginning of the end!
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I thought they were crazy ...now I understand
by Mrs Smith ini could never get my head around the fact that people fall inlove over the net.
it just seemed impossible to me.
but now that i have been posting here for a while a totaly understand.
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You're definitely a reason for me wanting to travel to SA.
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Doubting JWs ever approached you?
by greendawn inwhile you still were jws did any doubting jw ever try to talk to you about the flaws of the org and instil in you some doubt?
someone had told me that he didn't believe the gb members were straight and honest people that many of their ideas were wrong and that they had a secret agenda to pursue beyond the one they publicly proclaimed.
at the time i thought he may be right since they seemed to control everything and didn't allow anyone to contribute even the (so called) anointed.
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It's a good way to live UNTIL you suffer from a nervous breakdown due to living up to all the rules, regulations and meetings 3x week.
It's a good way to live UNTIL your child/partner needs a blood transfusion or they'll die.
It's a good way to live UNTIL your child/best friend/family member is disfellowshipped and you have to cut off all ties.
It's a good way to live UNTIL you or your child is abused by an elder and there are no other witnesses to the crime.
It's a good way to live UNTIL you realise you've given up education a career and have no pension and are approaching retirement.
It's a good way to live UNTIL you find out you've been lied to, decide to stop attending meetings and all your friends cut you off overnight.
Me? I'd rather be a Christian.
But if it works for you, that's fine, just hope that you never come face to face with one of the above.... -
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Will they encourage marriage and having many children?
by OnTheWayOut insince 1995 and the "generation" change, many jw's have gone ahead and had .
fairly normal lives instead of waiting until the new system.
by 1995, the 1975 mentality .
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I think all of us that still have some influence with jdubs ought to actively promote children waiting 'til the same age as Jesus was when he got baptised. If it makes one person think at least, it's got to be worth it....
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Will they encourage marriage and having many children?
by OnTheWayOut insince 1995 and the "generation" change, many jw's have gone ahead and had .
fairly normal lives instead of waiting until the new system.
by 1995, the 1975 mentality .
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OTWO I think you have raised a good speculation point here and feel you may have a spot on prophecy for the future - have you thought about setting up your own religion? :-)
The society must be seriously thinking about how to get new converts. Who knows, maybe we'll see them advertising in the press or producing a more evangelical, professional, interactive, less creepy website even.... -
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Update! Drew Sagan is no longer a Jehovah's Witness
by drew sagan inas promised here is all of the info regarding what has been going on.
per the last jc with the elders i realized that all i had done was buy time.
they felt that we should be df'ed right on the spot, but because i made a plea to wait for a letter coming back from the wts they decided to hold on taking such action.
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Way to go Drew! You are an inspiration. Best wishes to you and your wife.
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Fading With Children
by Paralipomenon ini have, for the most part successfully faded.
no elders calling, my parents know i don't attend meetings, but have a don't ask/don't tell policy.
they don't ask if i went to a meeting, i don't tell them i haven't.
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Thanks for this post P - it's given me food for thought for how to handle my in-laws and their relationship with our boys in the future!
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Putting off having kids?
by sweet pea init seems to me there may be some of you out there who have not had kids due to the situation where you are not of the same mind as your partner in wanting to bring them up as witnesses.
thinking back to besty and i before we had the two boys, i remember being of two minds - do i?
i was concerned that besty wasn't a spiritual head and he had even categorically stated that if we did have kids they wouldn't end up being witnesses.
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It seems to me there may be some of you out there who have not had kids due to the situation where you are not of the same mind as your partner in wanting to bring them up as witnesses. Thinking back to Besty and I before we had the two boys, I remember being of two minds - do I? don't I? I was concerned that Besty wasn't a spiritual head and he had even categorically stated that if we did have kids they wouldn't end up being Witnesses. At the time he said this I secretly thought to myself "oh yes they will if I have anything to do with it" although I did feel incredibly sad that there would be this conflict between us. Another couple of friends of ours are in the same situation - they have not have kids because he doesn't want them being brought up in the the faith and she won't contemplate having them if they're not. Her biological clock is ticking very loudly and it's the cause of a lot of bitterness and resentment in their marriage. Ironically, Besty and I decided to go for it regardless of our difference of opinion and 2 kids in quick succession later, resulted in me almost facing a nervous breakdown due to the pressures of raising 2 little ones and going to all the meetings. Together with bringing back memories of how I felt growing up as a Witness with all the isolation and not celebrating birthdays, etc I was in a frame of mind that led to me questioning the organisation (with a gentle prompt from Besty on a doctrinal matter) and 3 months later we have not been to a single meeting! So, having kids could theoretically help a spouse break free from the org if it is handled in a certain way...